Expect The Unexpected

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 Yes, that's what some people say. But aren't unexpected things those that are mostly unpleasant?

To me, this blog serves as an outlet, sort of. But for almost two months, I disconnected myself from it. I never peeked into this blog nor checked anyemail notification for comments. (I found out today that there were still visits from people. Thank you!) Although, I didnt totally go offline. I wouldstill check Facebook and Twitter once in a while, blogwalk a bit only to check new photos but not to read stuff.

After our Palawan trip, I had a very depressing discovery. It was very depressing at that moment. Iyak ako nang iyak. Because I didn't want to think about it, tulog ako nang tulog every afternoon after my shift. I put all the blame on Elmer. I wasn't talking to him that much. My spirits were really, really, really low. As in.

We are expecting. I am 16 weeks pregnant. Again. For the third time.

That's why.

Although, I guess, nagkulang kami sa pag-pray. I still blame Elmer. ^_^

I had so many things in my mind after my discovery. I couldn't imagine having three kids. Ever since, I've planned on having only two kids. Wapakels kung puro daughters meron ako at wala akong son. Gusto ko lang talaga ay two kids. Tapos.

Elmer and I had spent a little too much on pregnancy kits. Pa-ulit-ulit kasi ang test. Hoping na mali ang result ng previous test. #Asa!

When my sister started to notice that I have not been posting new entries here in my blog, she called my attention. Sabi niya, "Ate, hindi yata activeang blog mo. Hindi ka na ba maka-move on sa Palawan trip natin?" Natawa ako. I told her na may pinagdadaanan kasi ako. Charowt! I think she already knew what it was about that time.

That was in September. I am feeling so much better now. Acceptance is the key, yes? I thought, God gave Elmer and me this gift. For every gift received, I should be thankful. The moment talaga that I felt like I have really accepted this pregnancy was when I had an ultrasound on November 13. (But let me just make it clear. I already saw naman my OB-Gyn a couple of times since I found out I was pregnant.) Confirmation talaga na there's another life inside my tummy. During the ultrasound test kasi, my baby's legs were like paddling endlessly. Kawag ng kawag ang bagets. It was like he knew that he was being photographed. #PabiboLang

So there. I had to make a new entry about this life-changing, head-spinning episode in my life. My family's lives, budget, schedule and time will once again turn God-knows-how-many-degrees in May 2013. Am I excited? I am definitely...nervous.

Now that I've already shared with you that news, this blog will be back to its regular programming...I hope. ^_^ Andami ko kayang na-miss na i-blog. Nandiyan ang Cyber Crime Law, World Teacher's Day, Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2012, Zoren-Carmina's Wedding (Oo, kasama talaga 'yun!) and Thanksgiving to name a few at pati na ang maraming drama sa buhay ko at ng pamilya ko these past two months. For the past two months, everytime I did something interesting, ate or tried something new, attended a party or anything na gusto ko isulat, I would tell myself, "Ay 'di ko pa pwede i-share 'to until nasulat ko na sa blog ko na buntis ako."

I am happy to be back, and feeling normal again. ^_^

Ciao! ♥