Sad First Birthday

Can you imagine how frustrating and how saddening it could be for a mom not to be able to give her daughter a decent first birthday party? It's horrible!

It was Calli's first birthday on July 27. In March, I was planning of a (not really big, spend-all-my-savings) birthday party. You know the normal birthday party a one-year old could have? Mommy's friends (of course a one-year old still doesn't have BFFs) to come over, Birthday Cake(s), Balloons, Costumes, Clowns, Party Favors and all the good birthday stuffs. All of these did not happen. I was blaming one person why that did not materialize. (Let me think again, let me make that two(2) persons). I don't want to think about it anymore. It just pisses me off. I am trying to move on here, you know. Bawi na lang talaga ako sa second birthday niya. I promise it's gonna be BIG this time.

What lesson did I learn here? I should not let other people's opinions who only care at times, ruin my plans - not just first birthday party plans but other things - because they themselves do not have a concrete plan for themselves. I don't want to name-drop. Yes, I'm mad!

Little less than a year old Calli

♫ Happy Birthday Calli, ♪ Happy Birthday Calli. ♫ Happy Birthday, ♪ Happy Birthday. ♫ Happy Birthday Calli. ♫

I love you Calli!

Ciao! ♥

 

I Almost Forgot That I Have A Blog

I don't know what prompted me to write again. Those old blog posts that I currently have here prior to this one, they were written in 2008. I just imported them from my other blog site which by the way, I don't want to use anymore. (Bakit naman? Wala lang!) Going back..what prompted me to write again? maybe because my life now sucks! Hahaha.. I don't know what to do with my life. I live every day to survive the day. It is such a good thing to still have Calli with me. She just gives me the more reason to survive the day. But everyday, there's always something I cannot figure out what that's ugh! I don't know. I just know there's something wrong.

What I am trying to say is, I need this. I need some place to voice out my frustrations, my fears, my plans (kung meron man or meron na..), my whatever!

I thought I was strong. I guess I am not after all.

Ciao! ♥